Thursday, October 9, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
French maid to royalty (see maid in Braveheart -- skill sets seem to include hair styling, wardrobe-arranging and gossiping, French language skills a plus)
The person who scouts locations for television shows and films
The guy I saw on the History Channel who researches dragon myths and their relationship to dinosaur fossils
Tour guide for Americans in other, more interesting countries
Diplomat to some country we're not at war with, considering war with, or recovering from war with . . . act quickly, these jobs are rapidly drying up
Professional shopper (ha! I'm already doing this job for free!)
Out-duction Project Officer (I think this means that your job is canceling things; seems like you could phone that in)
Docent of any decent museum, although this requires the existence of another less fun job that pays well
Monday, October 6, 2008
- Morning: shower and wash hair with whatever shampoo seems to offer the hope of volume; brush teeth; flip hair upside down and blow dry while attempting to keep bangs from standing straight up and avoiding passing out from blood rushing to head; lip liner and lipstick; maybe eyeliner, maybe not. Go. Fifteen minutes.
- Evening: clean face with make-up remover wipes; brush teeth; take medicine. Bed. Five minutes.
My routines at 33:
- Morning: clean face with microderm abrasion wipes; brush teeth; apply hydroquinone to erase dark skin spots; slather on moisturizer with sunscreen; frost the layer cake with foundation; lip liner, eye liner, mascara; mousse hair and flip upside down to dry but not too much; stand up and avoid passing out from blood rushing away from head; continue to blow-dry on low and straighten with flat brush (okay, this is one of the good skills age has brought); smooth hair with expensive hair-smoothing stuff; perfume; wash hands which now smell like a very clean brothel. Go. Twenty minutes.
- Evening: remove make-up with make-up remover; clean face with microderm abrasion wipes; moisturize because I read that failing to moisturize at night means that your skin will sag into folds as you sleep, especially if you sleep on your face; apply hydroquonine and anti-acne medicine; brush teeth; brush teeth again with special enamel-hardening leave-in toothpaste; gag; take medicine; rub anti-cellulite cream on legs; put in nightguard. Wash hands, which now smell like a hospital. Bed. Twenty minutes.
I'm losing twenty-five minutes a day. That's 152 hours a year. And yet, in the scheme of personal obsessions, I'm skipping so much -- hair masks, leave-in conditioners, regular foot-sanding, facial masks, blackhead extractions, exfoliating creams, eye creams, botox, peels, oxygenating facials, eyelash permanents, eyebrow tints, whitening tooth bleaching. But the time those would all take force me to a decision. Do I want to be a well-rounded, accomplished person with skin like indoor-outdoor carpeting and dark eye-circles, or a smooth and shiny person with the intellectual curiosity and skill set of a kitchen sponge?
Saturday, October 4, 2008
And recently, following the births of friends' children and my neices, I began to want to have a baby. I think that part of my interest in a child came from a sense that motherhood would essentially remove me from the pressure for fabulousness. Being a mother in itself would be fabulous and, conversely, everyone knows mothers can't be fabulous because they are busy being mothers (my own beautiful and fabulous mother excepted, of course). It's contradictory, I know, but either way I'd be safe and could stop worrying about it.
I would still like a baby. But health problems, and a lack of motivation to make myself into a science experiment or expose myself to the wrenching rollercoaster of adoption, make this unlikely. And so here I am, seeking fabulousness. The will is strong, but the leadership weak.
On another note, I am distressed about the significant number of blogs about third-life crises that have one, maybe two entries. And no meaningful advice. I hope that this is because it's a feeling that passes so quickly that one needs only the time span of a couple of posts before recovering completely, but I fear that 1) these people are dead, or more likely 2) that the pathology is so absorbing that they eventually can no longer bring themselves to type.
Friday, October 3, 2008
So, instead of shaving (which, gifted as I am with ridiculously-quick growing hair and thin skin, has never worked well) I waxed my own legs. I've had my legs waxed at salons a couple of times before, but it always seems a little condescending to expect someone else to deal with my extraneous hair growth. Yuck. Here's what I learned from tonight's in-house experiment.
1. The reason that people go to salons to wax their legs is not the soft music, aromatic lotions, tiny water features, and high-quality supplies. The reason that people go to salons to wax their legs is that someone else has to deal with the mess. By the end of the evening, my legs were relatively smooth (more on that later), but I had wax on my hands, my shirt, the floor, the counter, the microwave, all of the spreading sticks that came with the kit, my feet, and my dog. Except for the slightly rewarding feeling of having accomplished this myself and the relief of not having to carry on a meaningless conversation with the attendant, I would pay $40 to spare myself the oily shower. And probably a week of cleaning the counter.
2. I am not as flexible as I used to be. You try to spread hot wax on the back of your calf without dripping any on the floor and while paying attention to the direction of hair growth. It is astonishingly complicated. This is a task that should be featured on Cirque du Soleil.
3. Waxing doesn't hurt that much. Any real woman can stand the pain.
4. If you wax your calves and it takes all twenty paper strips, it's okay to skip your thighs. Once you're over 30, your skirts don't show that part of your leg anyway.
5. It's best to do these things while your husband is out of town. He doesn't need to see this -- it involves just enough complexity and equipment that he'll try to surpervise. Or at least provide color commentary.
6. Hair on your legs grows at different rates. I'm not sure if you're supposed to wax, wait a week for the rest of the hair to grow and wax again, but I hate to have to block off another four hours so soon.
By the way, I remembered a couple more fabulous women around my age -- the divine Heidi Klum, of course. And Reese Witherspoon, Kate Winslet, Jennifer Aniston and Angelina Jolie. I'm not sure what their existence proves, though. That I'm shirking?
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Rescue Beauty nail polish -- it comes in great colors and stays and stays
Zappos -- you can't beat free shipping and the customer service is amazing
Nars lip pencil -- it's sheer and goes well under lipstick
The King Arthur Flour catalog -- great recipes and kitchen stuff you didn't know you needed
My Steve Madden purse -- the leather is beautiful and I love the lock
In Style magazine, both the paper version and the website -- especially the new Deals and Steals section
The petit scones at Starbucks
Healthy Choice smoked chicken paninis, which are only 310 calories and close enough to real bread
My stylist, Emma, who gives me haircuts that don't come with bad hair days
Burt's Bees Mama Bee belly butter -- probably good for pregnant stomachs but great for feet
Kensie and Kensie Girl for pretty clothes at good prices
Jessica Simpson shoes -- fabulous, shiny platform and 1940's heels at prices that allow me to buy more than one pair a year
Half.com -- super-cheap books you can't find elsewhere
The Orkney Islands
Anthropologie, although with each year the prices get more and more out of reach
Shabby-chic Parisian apartment style interior design, although until I can afford the apartment I will probably never buy
WWII advertising posters
H & M, the Ikea of clothing stores
My Costco treadmill, believe it or not
Scrabble, mostly because I almost always win
Movies that take place in Europe (current favs include In Bruge and Mama mia)
Tim Gunn, although I hate the Tim-Gunn-like androids on other design reality shows
Great black, pointy-toe knee-high boots
Skinny black jeans from Alloy
My mom's banana bread recipe
Hmmmm. That wasn't as cathartic as I thought.
Nightguards interfere significantly with the fabulous, sexy, breezy image you want to have of yourself. They are not sexy, nor fabulous, nor even comfortable. And to keep the spit in, you have to make a sucking sound every few minutes. And it forces to you to remember that there is a teeny, tiny war going on in your mouth, wherein your top teeth have to be protected from your bottom teeth.
All of that is to illustrate how far away my current life seems from the one I think I want . . . or need . . . to have. The problem is that I'm scared. And shy. And really underwhelmed with the skills I have. You know that question, "What would you do if you knew you could not fail?" My immediate response is, "That's asinine and fantastical. You CAN fail. Pretending you can't is for six-year-olds and oil tycoons." I just finished The Geography of Bliss by Eric Weiner. He explores the meaning of this question in Iceland, where basic necessities like health insurance and shelter are guaranteed by the government. Perhaps there you can safely fail, he argues, and so attempt things not in your immediate repertoire of skills and job experience. But then you have to live in Iceland.